Time has come and gone. I was engulfed in so many tangled messes I wasn’t sure I would ever see the light of day. I took on too many obligations, over extended myself, buried myself in craziness, and then decided to go back to school.
Of course I failed at many things. Or perhaps not failed so much as gave up on. Sadly some of those things were things I truly enjoyed. My biggest sacrifice was spending my time here, sharing my life as so many of you have shared yours with me. My health has not improved, I gave up on that focus, it was too time consuming and not very enjoyable. I hate giving up things I like and my over indulgence in coffee and tacos is a big part of who I have been the last four years.
I have let others dictate who I should be and my worth based on their opinions. I realized the error there rather quickly. However, the time lost is still time lost. I also forced my opinions on my youngest child to the point of breaking her spirit a time or two in the last 6 months. Thankfully she is only 18 and is still a forgiving child.
I went back to school for a number of reasons, the biggest was my children have all graduated from high school and are considered adults now. It is my time to do what I put off 22 years ago to raise them. I wish that I would have made better choices when I was younger, but I am ok with where my life is now. I love my kids and am very proud of the young adults they have grown into.
I have lots to be thankful for everyday. Phheata (fajita),the youngest dachshund, is a little snuggle bug and she starts my days of with warm morning snuggles, I am employed and have a great boss, I see my kids every week, I volunteer and give back to my community, and I haven’t smoked in 4 1/2 years. These are just some of the things I am thankful for. I plan to adjust my life, daily schedule, to fit in the things I have been putting off because “I don’t have enough time”, it is all in how I plan my day if I have the time or not to do the extra things I enjoy or just need to do.
I hope everyone has had a great start to 2016 and that 2015 left you with fond memories, silly smiles, or at least a crazy story or two.
HAPPY NEW YEAR 🙂 !